Uphill Climb

10 09 2012

Pretty sure this isn’t going to be read by anybody but me, but just in case it is, here’s the basics of this blog: I’m trying to get in shape and I’m going to do my best to chart my progress here. It’s going to be, just like the title of this post suggests, an uphill climb, since I’ve pretty much spent the last 20 years not eating right or exercising. But for the first time ever, I actually want to do this, so here goes.

I’m starting with small changes and reminding myself to be patient. I didn’t get like this overnight, so I’m not going to be able to change it overnight, either. First change is giving up soda. I’m a hardcore Pepsi addict, so you can imagine how well that’s going over, but I went off it last Wednesday and I haven’t broken yet. If you’ve never been addicted to anything, you won’t understand how hard it is to quit, and given that I work nights, it’s extra difficult. I have a splitting headache that’s stuck with me pretty much all weekend, but I’m not caving, if only because I don’t want to go back to square one and start withdrawal all over again.

Next is that I signed up for Fitocracy. It’s a website that awards points for exercise, even little things like five pushups at a time. I like the immediate gratification of points, and so far everyone there has been really welcoming, even though most of them are insanely fit and I feel like a schlub posting for five jumping jacks. But it’s five more than I was doing, so that’s some progress. Baby steps, and hopefully I’ll be able to put up bigger numbers for more points as I go along.

None of these changes are easy. Like a lot of people, my weight got out of control because of a number of issues, things that aren’t comfortable to look at, and I know I’m going to have to deal with them to keep going. But I want to get healthy, and I think that’s why this will take where previous attempts failed. See, this time it’s MY idea, not me being pressured into it by family members, and I’m not doing it to make myself look better or anything like that. I’m not worrying about the numbers on the scale, but on how I feel, and I think that’s going to make the difference. Guess we’ll see, won’t we?